07 March 2004

The build, the release, and the calm.

Well the other group got back from Wales and we went through the ritual of trying to work out who did what best. Obviously there was a small degree of friendly rivalry but we all got over it with a couple of pints of the peacemaker.

We were sharing the pub yesterday with some Neo Nazis. Must admit it was the first time I have ever seen people be so open about it. They weren’t wearing swastikas as such, they were stylised but still recognisable. Luckily they didn’t stay long and as quickly as they all marched in, they took their shaven heads, leather boots and outdated politics out the door again. Was a bit odd to see them in the flesh. I mean, there are the BNP posters up around our area but when you come face to face with the guys it just makes you wonder what went on in their lives to make them believe what they do.
Maybe we should all go and give them a hug and tell them that its all alright. . . . then again they would probably beat the living breath out of me for being a “fag” so I might let that one go.

I am still waiting for my lottery win to come through. I was looking at some delicious Marcos cars today and even though they don’t cost that much, they are still just outside of my considerable debt. That then got me onto thinking about what I would do when my uni course is all over. That then depressed me so I starting thinking about winning the lottery again. I tell you, this ignoring your problems thing is a real winner. Now if I can only make this work for my grades as well . . . . .

Went to the pound shop for some chocolate yesterday and promptly ate myself into doing double exercise to work it all off. Then today, after feeling guilty for eating so much yesterday, I wanted some more. I tell you it’s a slippery slope this gluttony thing.

I was reading an article today about how people have been lied to by cigarette companies. It was saying how “low” and “ultra” cigs can have the same effect as normal cigarettes because of the way they are smoked. I was going through this article and it was making me more and more annoyed the more I read. I got to the end and the thin veneer of patience I have for smokers had gotten that little bit thinner. If you want to smoke then fine, just don’t do it near me and don’t complain when you die early. But to pretend you thought the ones you were smoking were better for you is ludicrous. The only thing I can find that is analogous to this is stabbing yourself in the stomach with a butter rather than a steak knife – because its smaller.

Honestly, the amount of everyday things that we try to blame on others is getting out of hand.
Nazis; immigrants are not stealing your jobs, you’re not getting employed because you have a swastika tattooed on your forehead and you called the receptionist a paki.
Smokers; blaming the cigarette companies for putting tar in their cigarettes is like blaming the toilet for being full of shit.


And relax. . . . . .


Anyway, luckily for me there is also love, happiness and joy in the world. This is all because some friends of mine completed a half marathon for charity today. This has left me out of pocket but feeling good as we have once again managed to raise loads of money for good causes.
And once again the wonder that is Hazel who works in our Resource Room has got the university to match all our donations!!